ღ Melody ღ 淇淇

2011-01-08T09:28:00.000-08:00

我又来了，STPM 终于过了，总算是放下一个包袱了吧~那不用讲，我开心了很多,心情也自然好了 <3 ^^ 但是......
考试期间，我和我宝贝老公之间发生了不愉快的事，但最后也没事了，都是因为我所以才搞扎的，是妒忌心，是他的妒忌心，就是在事情发生后我们冷战了甚至分手。。。为什么‘分手’这两个字会那么容易从口中说出，在你还没说出口之前你已经失去理智了，那时我真的很失望，可是我知道你是一时只气，你更本都没有这个意思，到最后我们也和好了~你说不管我犯了什么错你都会原谅我，因为我永远都是你的宝贝老婆，他还说冷战期他也不好受，吃不安因为怕我不吃东西，睡不下因为一直想念我想我过得好吗，见回他时他真的瘦了，我问，那为什么当时不要主动来找我呢？当他回答时我的眼泪不停的流，心也痛得很，因为他说，要让我知道我自己做错了什么，他要我学习怎样去承担我所犯错的~~说真的，和他在一起之后我变成熟了许多，他教了我很多东西，他是用心的一步两步指导我也陪着我学习，保护我看着我长大（成熟），我总算没有选错老公，无论他做什么事他都先为我想，然而我也不要辜负他我也要他觉得他是没有看错老婆...从此他也更加爱我当然我也是，现在我才知道什么是真真的爱，他所说的所做的都是为我，我也要像他所做的一切也要好好珍惜他给的~

Every Sunday Morning~ muackssss

2010-10-17T09:59:00.000-07:00

Sunday Morning = BoyFriend Day

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❤ 每个星期日我们都是必做的 ❤

他会给个morning call我叫我起床

“还没起床吗？太阳晒嗨窿了咯！哈哈”

=.='''

30分钟后，

他骑着摩哆来载我的声音，

从我房间6楼都会听到！

我们就这样，

去他家，去看电影，去吃东西。。。

他总是把好吃的东西都留着和我分享，

就像这个

雪糕月饼^^

他真是傻瓜!!!

就是有他这样的傻瓜

我的星期日才会那么的开心度过

他会在 3.00pm 之前送到我回家,

因为他不要我迟到去练舞

可以的话他也想多点时间在一起啊...

虽然每个星期只有那么一点的时间见面

我心里也很满足了❤❤

A cup of Coffee 一杯咖啡

2010-10-10T09:21:00.000-07:00

人家喝酒才醉，我喝咖啡才醉；

相反的喝酒很难醉，咖啡一喝见效，

就像现在，我又醉了 ~

压力，

把我压着，我想哭很久了

但是我答应过我男友要坚强

所以我就忍着，不哭~

直到现在，

我也在忍着，一滴也不可留出来，

他每天用信息鼓励我

“ 宝贝，你要加油哦^^ ”

就是这样，我更不可以在他面前哭

其实，

我真的很想窝在他大大温暖的胸怀里

让他亲手帮我擦泪~

Happy Gurl ^^

2010-07-25T08:06:00.000-07:00

First, i'm going to talk about my MUET result
Band 3 OK!!! story END. Of coure for a Retake.

16/7 Morning school section, MUET period so... today Book Review is 'my turn', Gosh! nothing seems to worried about because i trust myself and i'm sure i can do my best of course with Many SUPPORTs from my dearly Friendssssssss... They'r ROCKS!!!

16/7 after school, go back home and prepare myself for performance tonight, it might be a big function for me but somebody will take it not even part of their finger nail, anyway it just my self thought!!!Maybe!

This major stuff was a makeup show by Aery Jo at Flomingo Hotel which is a very luxury hotel 3-4stars in KL. 4.30 p.m when we arrived, everyone were busy with thier duty, Makeup Artist, Hairstyler and Modelsssss~ by the time we arrived, all Models already done their makeup.Just one word !!!WOW!!! body painting, heavy makeups, bigbig hair like Lady Gaga Style very Amazing & Impress me so much~ too bad dont have time to take photo with them because i'm Very Busy Tooo!!! sitting there let pro.makeup artist paint me for 1.30 hrs then take about 10 mint for my hair~

My Evil look >.<

Evil huh? haha~ hope man dont get trap to it ( just jk)...

The function start at 8.30 sharp waiting for opening ceremony bla bla bla~~~ After 30mint is our show, i'm glad that i dont feel any nervous even the MC call our group name '' Jolly-B'' means JollyBelly Baby^^

After the show, we shout because we glad that we done very well and we successed to capture all the VIP & audieses attentions, they clap thier hand very loud~

Jolly-B and Greatful Lovely Teacher in the Middle front
(The second from left is me)

Thanks to Teacher Kit JieJie, Janey JieJie & Jolly-B members Love u all Muacksss~

~我需要,宽阔的肩膀~

2010-05-08T07:59:00.000-07:00

Hellowww, my blog~ i'm back~

真的很矛盾！

考试要到了~怎么办呢？

study mood 还没ON

不过又想考好成绩

烦的！

§ 学业的问题,没有人可帮我 §

跟朋友说？不可以,因为...

他们自己也有压力...

跟老公说？不可以,因为...

他不会明白的...

跟家人说？根本不可能...

都是得靠自己吧 T.T

YiTing进院了...很担心...

☆我向天上的星星祷告

祝她快点好起来☆

※说回我的事吧※

Daddy最近不懂怎么了

每次都发我脾气（只有我噢）

可能因为弟弟的事而感到压力吧

那也不能拿我来发脾气呀

我没有做错事叻 )':

终于,忍不住...

跟我老公哭诉

可惜他回乡了

我哭着和他说

"我很怕,你在哪里？...

快点回来好吗？..."

"我真的很怕,daddy说要打我...

我要你..."

他在安慰我说

"你爸他XX#￥%@&;*..."

"老婆,不要怕,你爸他真的打你的话

我不会放过他..."

"不管发生什么事我一定会在你身边

就算做工也会放下所有东西来保护你..."

"不要哭了,明天我就回来的..."

感觉好像他真的在我身边了^^

我永远都记得这一刻

♂❤♀

谁的错？

2010-03-10T23:11:00.000-08:00

最近家庭问题很多哦。。。
。。。很烦。。。很烦。。。很烦。。。
每次有这种问题我都会
跟我的男友讲
就有时候向他哭诉 :'(
讲了过后心里都舒服多
**真的好感谢他**（有时候罢了！）

不过。。。
讲得多会觉得腻和
慢慢也会习惯。

有谁的父母会每天说自己的女儿
~ 打扮到跟妓女一样。
~ 不知道他们生到我酱不懂什么东西。
我能怎样？忍吧。。。

我能忍受给别人气弄
因为，我也不想把小事闹大
以破坏感情
不过，我的忍耐度虽然长
但是，也有限的
要玩也不用每次酱玩吧，
一次不够吗？
我也会闲的。。。

>.<'''

2010-02-18T08:33:00.000-08:00

Lazy!!!

2010-02-05T06:35:00.000-08:00

He always acc me to my friends B'day...

He so cute sit a side and keep quite & observe

what i'm doing with my friends

suddently let me feel him like a BIG KID ❤

February so many friends B'day leh..

Yiting Boon JiaEn & my cousin sis'

haha

no money$ to buy gift to them for this month arr

have to delay their present until next month$$$

cool!!! today go tuition

Azfar fetch me and Likar go Ampang LRT

then we meet KaiWen(Likar' BoyBoy) there

then we have M'd at Kota Raya

haha...i like a bigbig spotlight...

Today i knew that Mr.Tan (bio teacher)

& Mr.Eng (Math2 teacher)

they been promote to higher gred

but have to leave our school by today

it happen too suddent haven 'prepare' yet

Few of us cry :'( then

but after that i feel release a bit

coz Likar tell me to think another way

it is a good news for them

we should feel happy...

haha :)

Come on!!! New yEar 2010 Babe

2010-01-23T03:31:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was 豪仔 birthday (生日快乐!!!）

Many friends and i celebrate together with him

included my DearDear ^^

For a Long time we din go gai gai jor

he promised tomorow take me watch Avatar

again!!!（因为我喜欢看嘛）

别人认为我们很幸福，
其实，有时候我觉得蛮辛苦的
因为，种种父母的原因都是
来之我。。。
他也要承受，没选择得接受

有一次，他被我妈咪糟蹋

他也被逼要收这种委屈

我知道他这样做

都是为了我不要那么为难！

最重要的是他从来都不怪我

也没想过要分开

这就是爱吧！

Sad stuff dont say le

New Year New Begain

hope we have great chance to meet

（ ◕‿‿◕ ）

☆ 时冷时热

2010-01-12T06:13:00.000-08:00

每晚的10多我都会跟他谈电话

我很期待,他跟我谈天的语气,

有时候他很酷,有时候他很温柔,

有时真的怕了他...

为什么男生都是这样的呢?

他们说女生很难理解他们的心..

我认为男生也一样嘛!!!

有几次我也被他弄哭了 T-T

每当我哭时，算他会做啦

他还会疼回我 ^-^

A Unforgetable Love Suprise~ I Love You~

2009-12-15T05:17:00.000-08:00

Hehe ~ Yesterday is my Bday~
but i got to attend tuition until 8.00~
then my dear dear Jack come fetch me
but that time he got A bit late...

i wait and wait until he Comes
i meet him at Ampang station~
i'm not realize how long i wait him already...
this means i will always wait for him
no matter how long he taKe...
i aLways be there for him....

after he pick me,
then we when tO Pandan Indah
called'Village Restaurant'...
to haVe our dinner...
what a glamorous placE
full of feel & passion...

then, i went to his place...
before i step in
he ask Me to close my eyes
and hE turn on NeYo song(So Sick)
then what a suprise
he gave me a bouquet
with 7 Roses....
i feel touch deeLy inside my heart
almost cry Out.. but i didn't
because i know he Dont like to see
me cry...i have to hold mY tears..

but........
there's second Suprise..
then he ask me to close my eyes again
then he bougth me a neckles
he put on to my neck gentlely
and he said this neckles comes with pair
he also got one...Sweet
Then we started kiss each other
and said I LOVE YOU

This is the first time
i recieve Flowers from boy
and i extreamly happy
and suprise from
my dear JackJack YY

Departure from Bored, Aboard to Love

2009-12-03T05:27:00.000-08:00

Yesterday night,

he sang 10 JAY CHOU songs to me

very touch,until my tear of joy drops out

none stop...

because...so far,

no one sing that many songs to me

although just 1o songs...YYY

he sing out through his heart

every single song

i can feel it very deeply

Nowadays, he tried to talk with me

in English, the way his talk was humored

make me laugh all night,

i wonder why he sudddently want to learn English

he said it is for his own good & for his future

and he added,

he want to use English to fight with

those guys who trying to date me...

LOL he is very cute,love him very much Mmmucks...

Hang Out!! !~happie~

2009-11-25T05:07:00.001-08:00

That's all i got...

picture from CanCan..

Neh my Stupid MSN photo swap lo

useless MSN thing...

Haiz suan la

I went Jogoyah with CanCan & Leycar

we eat a lot but looks like not enough LOL

but happie & satisfied lo~~

After that, we went to Pavilion..

i met Brian,he got a work as a promoter

he is wearing all white like my school uniform(boys)

then ask him to help us take photos

hahaha...

Later,

i want to shop TS somemore

but...

my Dear Dear said scare later dont have car

then no choice..

have to go home jor...

nvm la...TS wont close down de

next time shoping until DROP^^yeah^^

My daddy surfed on line he found an article,

the article wrote about 'The End of World',

it sound so scary,

i scare of nothing ...

except when i heard the end of world,

i still got many things haven done yet

i scare the end of day coming..

At night i cry in front of my Dear

just because after read the article

how fool i m...

but no matter how

i still have to survive day by day

appreaciate everythings i got now...

Holiday List

2009-11-20T20:39:00.000-08:00

Yeah~ Holiday again, two months, but it will pass rapidly
~i think~~
Now i got to do some planing,
and things should be done, settle down and prepared
before step into the next year 2010:-
~practise MUET essay
~Bio experiment
~Mathematics pass years paper
~revision on Biology & Chemistry
:-* Boring huh~~

Beside, I will TRY as hard as I can
to meet my Dear JackJack ^^
I miss him so much...Y

sick

2009-11-18T22:24:00.001-08:00

Finally, sick jor...
feels like the end of world
My living alarm(mom) called me up
this morning, but feel a bit dizzy & headache
then i know... i sick jor!

today promised my frens to go school
but can't make it..sorry girls!

Nowadays, edicted to blogger
just to fill up my empty time,

I had a good friends called YengYeng
we met during Form1
most of the time we share secret together
chating together, like BFF(best friend forever)
but Form3 that time,
one incident happen on us,
then she ignore me,
until now we act like dont know each other
and never add each other on facebook
when everytime i saw her on fb
i feels guilty and sad
i know i did wrong
but i dint mean it that time
A thousand of SORRY to her
i hope she can forgive me and we can be friend again
someday...
Between Form3 till Form5
i act like so childish, don't know anythings
but now i grown up
'physically and mentally' grown up
a partially matured now
i hope we can have a friendly talk
and solve our problems
Die Without Regret..LOL!
and i hope she don't mind...

Very tired

2009-11-18T03:54:00.000-08:00

Today hang out at Yiting's house

something like pillow talk..

hmmm....

today i got my chemistry and PA paper

from friend

i Pass my PA!!!wow~

and my kedudukan is no.4

a bit happy when i heard that..

but dont know wat happen on me..

usually i'm suppose to be very HyperActive

but those weeks like very tired...

I tired for waiting my bf to come...
he promise to send me the cellphone battery on friday
then friday to next monday,
monday to tuesday,
tuesday until today wednesday
never come...
haiz...everyday works until late night
never got the chance to meet me also
DAMN!!!

but nevermind...
it is not his fault..
all blame on his Boss
terrible, useless boss!!!
make me miss my bf until fall sick.

Why some boy want to see me through
webcam so much..
if i not allow them, they felt angry
and ignore me
what's wrong with them?
Drive me Nut!

'B' days

2009-11-08T23:46:00.000-08:00

My ‘B’ is stand for ‘Bad’

This whole week make me suck, now I feel very very sad and totally down.

No mood to do anything beside sleep,

Now me alone at home, heavy rain outside…I kind a feel like want started to cry!

Today, pengajian am paper 1 test, is ok not so hard and some are not easy.

MUET teacher (Penny Peng) returns back our MUET exam paper (essay part)

OMG! I only get 36/100 beyond then expected, cant imagine..

After that no mood to continue doing anymore…she have no mercy…

Math paper failed, MUET also failed, who can I blame to? Myself.

Now I started to think how this could happen on me? But fine.

I think I still got a lot of space to improve my self, but what should I do?

Next, one of my friend name Thevan, don’t know angry me for what?

Maybe last time I laugh at him because of his heavy weight then cause his motorbike

‘pumcet’ that why he angry me…

Furthermore, my grandpa will had a small operation on his eye.

Only small matter but I still care about it…

Plus, my boy friend and I had a fight last night,

Our Postpaid bill cost us about RM100 something ONLY THE BEGINNING OF MONTH!

Then how bout the rest of days, he estimated will cost about RM 300 in the end of month.

He felt very stressful, and I told him I will pay for my own bill but he yell at me said,

‘Keep ur money, I will settle by my self, I rather prefer you use ur own money to buy any clothes u like’…

OK then fine! He said he can settle by himself, then how he does it?

Then I said ‘I rather end our relationship because

I can’t stand aside and watch my love one suffer like this’

then he ask me ‘have you got another boyfriend outside?’

‘Of course not!’ I said. Then we just ignore what I said =.=’

Man Man Man! How could he never understand me…my heart broken at the moment.

But after awhile, we both feel better everything back to normal…

Heart pain! I’m like a fool! I think I need to go on a holiday trip! Or party whole night till Drop!

Time can prove anythings

2009-10-12T08:16:00.000-07:00

This is my dear dear!

see how happy he is...

he feel proud of me

and i proud of him

Always......^^

This picture took on the day when

i had my first Performance!!!

This is the first time he watch me perform,

first time i been invited to perform,

first boyfriend ever watch my show...

first person i invite to watch my

first show...

Allow me to elaborate more about him,

he got small eyes,

huge body,

tall,

and big......

but...for me out looking is nothing

i really dont care,

i think he look nice and handsome

but somebody totally do not agree with me...

(actually is good to know that)

I remember he ask me a question,

before we start our relationship,

he ask...

"I'm not rich, I have no car...(bla bla bla)...

will u care about it?"

i reply him with no hesitate

say " i don't care! i'm have no interest to your properties"

at first he not gonna believe what i said...

(he tot KL girls all are greedy)

Anyway, time can prove everything!!!

and now he trusted me with what i promised...

Accumulate Affair

2009-10-06T20:27:00.000-07:00

Many things could happen in one day

like Monday(05/10/2009) a badminton competition had held in my School!

before the day come i had some training session with YITING,LIKAR,JIA EN

DUWEI, MIC & YITING's FRIENDS....(thousand Thanks for THEM)

The 'badminton day' has come...before the competition start...

i didn't feel any nervous...and i didnt do any warm up tooo...

because i dont want make myself feel like i'm in the real competition

if i do, it make my feel like no enjoyment during the compititon ...

so i just consider it as normal training..

i feel so lucky & happy because i have a greatful & cute partner JIA EN

she did very well , finally we get 2nd place...

not bad for us because this is the 1st time we join in this kind of competition^^

* * *

On the next day (06/10/2009),another competition has come this time BASKETBALL

our team got 5 members (KarKar,TingTing,HuoiHuoi,FaFa & KeiKei)....

this competition was look amazing & look funny because

few of us dont know how to handle this games then we participate ourselve in to this game...

during the game,Kei Kei did a very wrong things, i almost throw my ball in to my own net...

at that every one laugh at me...but i din feel like angry or shy because at that time

the weather is fucking hot and i just wanna focus on my game nothing else....

after the competition is over then i only laugh at myself,how foolish i'm!!

It is almost 4.30,we went to McD to celebrate MIC fairwell

because he is going to transfer to social class...i feel very sad at the moment...

when he tell us he is going to transfer at the first time i tot he was kidding,

but he really take it seriously THIS TIME...nevermind just transfer to the opposite block only.

^ Victory^

he is my friend,but just a normal friendship nothing beyond than that,

he is a...... good gentleman and very helpful guy, but sometimes the way he talk is

is like too over, i know he did it not on purposely i trusted him...

He teach my play Poker Game on Facebook, he tell me something about himself sometimes,

he lent me his badminton racquet, and he fetch me to TingTing house during Mooncake Night

emmm......He is a very good friend...but i got a strange feeling toward him

sometime like him sometime hate him...on msn he totally like another person from who i

meet in school times...complicated!!!Haiz...

* * *

Today i got sick because yesterday i play under the hot sun, today is CanCan Bday

too bad i can't join them to celebrate with her....but nevermind i still got a present to her..

The Way of Love 就是这样“他爱我”

2009-08-17T05:02:00.000-07:00

我和他，就这样相识了半年，快乐的。。。伤心的。。。度过。
其实这半年来，和他见面的日子十只手指都算得出

我们每天晚上都是通过手机来维持我们的关系，
有时候，家人不给我出街，甚至，没收我的电话。。。没关系
最让我痛苦的是。。。无论我多么努力去安排一切的时间
到最后总会有困扰注挨着我们见面。。。或许这是一种考验？
说真的有点像现代版的"罗秘欧&茱丽叶"。。。

我怕，他没耐心陪我一起走下去。。。
我怕，他会忍受不了这段感情。。。
我怕，他就因为这样而离开我。。。

直到有一晚，我突然问了他一道问题“你辛苦吗？”
我心想，他到底知道我在问什么吗？这时我很期待他的答案，
30秒之后，他用认真，沉重带点悲伤和泪的语气回答我，他说，

“我会永远的保护你，永远爱你。。。就算有一天我不在，
我也会回到你身边呵护着你，不让你受伤，不让你掉泪，
不让你受苦。。。我会紧紧抱着你。。。”

从这番话中，已经知道他一直以来都受了很多很多的委屈，
只是藏在心里不说出口，因为我知道他怕会hurt到我。。。

从那秒开始，我比以前更爱他，他也更加爱我，
就算他不在我身边，我依然可以感受到他的温暖。。。
就是这样“他爱我”...

~Kei Kei Good girl gone Bad~

2009-07-09T05:10:00.000-07:00

I'm being good girl gone bad because
Today i did something really wrong to someone...
Someone can say that she is in innocent...

Let me tell you what's going on

I chatting with Candace (one of my best friend) during teacher speaking infront
a "Pengawas" stands beside me suddently
Then she said "Diamlah tak faham bahasa ke?"with purposely infront of many students
afterthat she went away.....
At that time, i feel so angry and of course a bit embarrasing......
i feel like want to scold dirty words to her but i can't do that
because she is my senior.....so i scold dirt behind her...

Can you imagine how angry i m at that time.....so bad

我好辛苦

2009-07-03T03:01:00.000-07:00

为什么？

我那么细只

我那里做错了？

为什么？

家人要那样对我

我很不听话吗？

从出世到现在都那么管我，

我了解他们的心情，那他们有了解过我吗？

是不是我是女孩所以要管得特别严？

为什么我的家人永远都不会了解我的？

是沟通出现问题吗？

不会吧，他们讲的语言我都明白的！

那问题是出现在那里呢？

为什么我怕回家？

踏入家门口就会感觉到有压力。。。